Justice for Trayvon Martin

I guess this is the post to currently write out all my feelings, because at this point I am completely enraged, even though I try to hide it. I'm going straight off of emotion, so there is no proofreading or stopping...I'm just writing how it comes to me.

Trayvon Martin...Where to even begin? The case in itself is all fucked up, and not only does it have to with racism in America, but also the fucking politics that comes with a name.

I know everyone has heard about the case, so I don't feel the need to recite the facts over and over again. However, there are things about the case, in particular, that really don't sit well with me. (I warn you now, there will be a lot of profanities in this post, so read on if you dare.)

The 911 call. I can't listen to the whole thing, because it really saddens me to hear Trayvon crying out for help, while the person is trying to tell police what is going on. George Zimmerman claims that it was him screaming for help in the background, but anyone with a good ear and common sense can tell that the voice heard is of a young man, NOT an old ass person. To have the nerve to use the 911 call as an advantage to get himself out of the fucked up situation he got himself in baffles me.

The arrest record. You know what, I have come to the conclusion that the only reason that Zimmerman is not arrested yet is because of his fucking parents. If it wasn't because his parents are employees of the federal court system, his ass would have been in jail YEARS ago. But because his daddy is a retired judge, he can persuade the police in Sanford to do whatever he wants them to do. What I don't understand is how does Casey Anthony, a woman who was ACCUSED of killing her own child not arrested, but this man who we all know killed Trayvon is NOT ARRESTED YET. I need an ANSWER. It doesn't come together AT ALL.

The Sanford Police Department and the 'Stand Your Ground' Law. These fucktards at the Sanford Police Department really should be on the shit-list of EVERY FUCKING FLORIDA RESIDENT. They FAILED at their jobs, letting this man go and not questioning him further on the events of that night. The 911 dispatcher told him not to follow Trayvon, and what did he do? The followed and killed him anyway. The 'Stand Your Ground' law is the stupidest fucking thing I have ever heard of, and the Sanford Police Department and Zimmerman's lawyers are trying to twist the words of the law, citing that Zimmerman had the right to kill Trayvon. If ANYONE had the motive of self-defense, it was Trayvon. Zimmerman basically stalked him, and invaded his grounds. Trayvon, in my opinion, had every right to defend himself from Zimmerman. Now, the head of the police department wants to step down. His ass should have been fired for not doing his job! As a cop, your job is to protect the people. If all the evidence, not circumstanial evidence, but SOLID evidence points to this man, then why not arrest him?

Joe Oliver. This FUCKING UNCLE TOM PAID SPOKEPERSON BITCH ASS MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!! It is clear as day to me that the person that the Zimmerman's hired to try to bring to light that Zimmerman is not racist, is the fucking worst attempt I have ever seen. This man probably doesn't know Zimmerman from a can of paint, and is going on CNN, MSNBC, and all other news outlets trying to convince the public that Zimmerman was acting in self defense. Do you know he had the nerve to say that his 17 year old daughter said that coon is a term of endearment?? If that wasn't the straw that broke the camels back for me, then I don't know what was. I am from a predominatley black area. I have NEVER heard anyone use the word coon in the way that Zimmerman used it. I was clearly a term to belittle Trayvon's character by saying "fucking coons". This man cannot be serious. He is the epitome of greed, ignorance, stupidity that I have EVER seen.

Racists. Or more known as the people trying to spin Trayvon into some thug who assulted and attacked Zimmerman. I don't see how the evidence is clear as day to these people, yet they still refuse to believe that this boy is innocent. It really makes me upset, and I know I shouldn't be, when people make ridiculous racist comments. Why can't black people be innocent? From what I see, white people commit the most crimes, kill the most people, brainwash and corrupt the minds of individuals on a LARGE scale everyday, but we can't be innocent? It pains me to know that, even though I knew racism still exists, it is so prevalent in my age group. People on Twitter making racial comments, and they are my age. Sometimes, I can't even blame them, I blame their fucking stupid ass, bango motherfucking redneck ass parents. What makes it even worse is that other minorities hate on each other. What is that? We are all opposed people. What does hating on the next group DO for you?Someone even commented that since Zimmerman is Hispanic, he can't be racist. WHAT KIND OF LOGIC IS THAT??? EVERYONE CAN BE RACIST!!! There is no defending a man who clearly acted in a fit of rage over Trayvon's outfit, skin color, or even Zimmerman's mentality of 'rent-a-cop' superhero. I just find it funny that the color of my skin, something I can't change, effects you so directly. I don't comment on the stupid ass ignorant shit I see white people do on the DAILY, so why do I have to be subjected to the sterotypes of black people. With that, I'll say this, not all white people are racist. In fact, many of them aren't. I have AMAZING friends, who happen to be white, and they are the most down to earth loving people, who care about me no matter what my skin color is.

To sum it all up, justice needs to be served...NOW. Not 2 weeks from now, but right the fuck now. It has gone on too long, and I'm afraid to say that if it doesn't there might be crazy ass riots happening all over the place and the beginning of something bigger.

Hopefully though, to keep it on a positive note, that won't happen and a jury will convict him of the right cause.

Workouts

Work outs. I know, I hate them. However, with recent developments (and all this damn college food), I think I need to start going to the gym.

But when I go, I don't want to be looking like a sad lost puppy, asking "What am I supposed to do?" I really find that's embrassing, considering the MANY people who frequent my school gym know exactly what they want to do and how to do it. I have been scouraging the internet, trying to find exercises for teens, and women. However, these searches seem to be futile.

Watching my roommate and her boyfriend do P90X, makes me think I really need to start working out and getting in shape for the summer. (Although, I seriously doubt I'll be going to anyones pool or beach. But we'll see.) I want to be in shape, which is a big difference from being thin.

When I tell people I need to work out, they look at me like I've lost my mind, especially my high school friends. I mean, whenever I would tell them that I'm out of shape or something in this category, I really think they thought I was lying. I may be thin, but that doesn't mean in shape. I'm okay, sure. But, I really want to get into a routine of working out. If I establish this routine now, then I can be in shape as I get older and gain weight. I don't wanna be 30 years old, looking severly out of shape or overweight. That's not even old enough to look that way!

Whenever I usually go to the gym, I get on the bikes or the treadmill, but that only works my legs. I want to work my abs especially, to get them flat. Its not a muffintop or pudgy or anything, but its something I want to work on.

Maybe I'll search some more and find something. =)

Currently...

Hello again!

Long time no hear from. I have been contemplating making a blog post for some time now, and realized, I have absolutely nothing to talk about. Nada. Zip. None. I guess I feel like I should only write when something exciting happens, but then that would be next to never.

So, some updates with myself.
 1) I am back in school. Yeppers. I am offically back on Towson soil. I have been back in B-More for about a week now. Its been extremely interesting, to say the least. I have been making more of an effort to communicate with my friends on campus, seeing as though I felt so "out of the loop" last semester. I have the nack to isolate myself from people, because I like my personal space, but there comes a point where I just want to be included. So there's that. Secondly, I like all of my classes. My boring chemistry professor just left, so now I have an awesome one, who is considerably more intersting than the last. My classes end all before 4:00p.m, so I have a very easy schedule that doesn't take up most of my time. I am taking CHEM 105, SOCI 101, PSYCH 101, PHIL 101, and ENGL 102 this semester. These are pretty easy classes, but the only one I don't like is my philosophy class. The professor is so freaking BORING!!! I hate even mustering up the energy to go to class on Tues./Thurs.
 2) TU After Dark was so much fun! So we had an event on campus the Friday of the first week of classes called TU After Dark. I met some really cool girls there, and me and my friends had fun, although someone was being a sourpuss, but whatever. -__- The point is I had fun, and that's all that mattered. There was lines for EVERYTHING, though. And the lines took forever to move. They had karaoke, mechanical bulls, game show, live animal show, and other things that were really cool.
 3) Natural for a month! Yep. You heard me right. I really thought by this time I would have reverted back to my old ways and put heat on this hair, but nope! I am officially off of it! I have not applied heat to my hair in over a month. I'm so excited! I really think I can keep this up, and just let my hair grow naturally. It seemed to have grown a lot in my problem area in a little over a month, so just wait until May! My hair will be awesome-ly grown out by then. I'm still doing the coil outs on my hair, since I had more of a tapered style it looks better, and it hides the problem area extremely well. Everyone compliments me on my hair and I LOVE that. Not to sound superficial or anything, but I was really unsure about leaving my hair in its natural state, since ALL people have seen me with straight hair and seem to like that rather than curly hair. But, I like it, and now that others have acknowledged that I look good with it, I feel great about my decision.
 4) Videos. I started doing youtube videos, but then I figured, what's the point? I think a blog is good enough for me right now. I don't like to have my image out for many people to see. However, I do have one video up, and its a video response to one of my favorite Youtubers, 4itsrox. I did like 4 videos after that, but took them down. I was just bored and needed something to do, and those were it.
 5) Sociology experiment. I just got an assignment for my sociology class to basically do something out of the norm and write a brief assessment on how other people reacted towards you and how you felt about breaking the normal code. So, I asked on the book of faces (Facebook) and decided that I should sit cross legged in an elevator in Tower C, where my friend stays and see how people react to me. I think I would have one friend in the elevator with me, just for support, but they would ride and act like they don't know me, while I sit on the floor. I think it could be interesting.

It was snowing when I came in from class, like 45 minutes ago, but I'm not sure if it still is. I want something to stick so I don't have to go to my 8am tomorrow.

Off to do homework. Buckets of fun! -_________-

My Thoughts On SOPA

Hey! Maryam wanted me to talk about the SOPA Act, so I decided to make a video!! Check it out!
These videos should be more than the actual blogs, because I can just talk to the camera and go with it. So, expect to see these more often!

Nicki Minaj...Girl What Are You Doing?

Hello everyone!

Coming in really quickly to give you my review on Nicki Minaj's "Stupid Hoe" video. Check the video below, it says everything.

Oh yeah...And check out the actual video.

Post comments man!!!

New year and Natural Hair!

Well hello again!!!

Haven't written in such a long time. Been enjoying my carefree days of doing nothing before spring semester starts. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! Its officially 2012!

I love the New Year. It give me a start to bigger and better things in the future. Its also a reminder to leave old drama and conflicts in the year behind me.

So with that all being said, the majority of this post is going to be on my hair. So, if you're someone who doesn't like reading/listening about hair, this post most certainly is not for you.

Well, let's start at the VERY beginning. I had been getting perms in my hair since I was about 8. (That's a shame.) Now, perms were great. Everyone in my family had perms. It made it easier to style, and you could get in water and your hair would still be straight and smooth. However, once i got a little older, I hated them. The constant putting chemicals in my hair, the burning and not being able to freely scratch my itchy scalp if I wanted. (LOL)

Well, let me stop there. I'm not saying perms are bad. My mother has had perms since I can remember, and she's always had nice hair. Same goes for my aunts and my cousins. All their hair is beautiful, even with the perms in it. So, don't take this as a "I HATE PERMS" post, because it isn't. When I had perms in my hair, I really liked it for what is was worth. No worries about sweating it out, or even getting my hair wet, because it would still be straight.

So jumping back into the story, being a freshman in high school, I will say, I didn't care about my looks at all. I wouldn't do right by my hair, not washing it for weeks and putting WAY too much heat on it. I decided in the 10th grade that I would stop with the perms and just let my hair be natural. I was going through what the natural community calls the transition stage. My hair was slowly growing out of the perm and becoming all natural. However, as the years went on, I constanly wore my hair straight, so no one ever knew I didn't have a perm in my hair. I had successfully straightened my natural hair without the use of perms!

However, all that heat on my hair began to take its toll. My hair would start to break, and so I decided in the summer of 2011 to just cut it all off. Most people have seen my short cut and knows what it looks like and my hair was completely natural then. I still didn't learn from the past and continously put much more heat on my hair, especially since I went to college, and didn't have my hairdresser in my back pocket to do my hair every week.

Coming back home for the winter break, I noticed that I had done DAMAGE to my hair, so bad, that it was severly breaking off. From that moment, I really decided to forget all of the heat, and go FULLY natural, rocking my hair the way it grows and not giving a damn what anyone has to say about it. I really think that being natural, in its little way, has made me empowered. I can walk out my house in the style I want to wear it, and not care at all what someone else has to say.

I really feel that (although I don't want to get to deep into it, because at the end of the day, its only hair) all people, have been conditioned to wear their hair a specific way all their lives. For me, it started when I was 8, with my first perm, and I just was conditioned to think that every person wears their hair straight all the time. Now that I'm older, and I know that not all people have the same style, texture, etc. of hair, it gives me confidence to do what I want and to not listen to the many people who will bring me down over a superficial thing like what I choose to do with my hair.

Hair Regimen

With this natural journey, I have decided to fully research and see what I can do to grow my hair effectively and healthy. So, I have firstly determined that my hair is a really wierd texture. Let me explain, if you look on the curl chart:

I'm some wierd inbetween of 3c and 4a. Secondly, I have to buy all new products and find new ways to style my hair other than using heat. I will say that Youtube has been my best friend in my whole process. Its only been like a week with no heat, but I will say, I plan to be fully committed to this new journey I'm taking.

So,(for those who care) I have 4 products that I will be using religiously.

The first is Creme of Nature" Detangling and Conditioning Shampoo.

As a natural haired person, it is important to detangle your hair, because it can get really brittle and dry and tangle-y. So, I purchased this becasue of the detangling component, and because it contains Sunflower and coconut oils, which are good for the hair.

The second is Lustrasilk Shea Butter Conditioner.

So, a little 2 little birdies told me that shea butter and olive oil is good for the hair, on the book of faces. (aka Facebook). So, I thought, "Well, if its good for the hair, why not just buy a conditioner of shea butter!" And that's what I did! This conditioner is supposed to treat heat damaged and hydrates the hair, so I'm super excited because that is really what my hair needs.

The third is Coconut Oil.

Coconut oil is like the best thing on God's green earth. Not only does it had moisture to your hair, but it SMELLS SO GOOD!!!! I've been using this coconut oil on my hair FOREVER, but I didn't know you were supposed to use oils on wet hair??? Where they do that at? So, I've been using it to on my wet hair, as well as the dry hair. No need for dandruff over here!

Lastly, Elasta Op liquid styling gel.







This product is a lifesaver. Seriously...It doesn't make your hair all rough, dry and brittle when you put it in. I coiled my hair this weekend, (its messy now) and I looked like a hispanic. (No disrespect.) My hair was SUPER curly! I loved it. So, if you don't know about the gel, get into it.

So yep, thats it. For the first few days I cowashed my hair (wash your hair, but instead of using shampoo, use conditioner) but that didn't really do it for me. So the weekend I coiled my hair, and I really liked it! So we'll see how this natural hair journey goes! =D